Ahhh

I have never ever ever been so glad for a half-term.... (by which I mean I probably have but I'm glad this time too!) It's been a long term!

Looking forward to seeing some favourite people, relaxing and sleeping!

Trying

So I'm epically failing at talking to someone about why I feel like shit.  I'm drowning, I truly feel like I am.  My arm is riddled with marks because it is calming me down...  But how do I go about expressing this?  It's just utterly ridiculous.

I'm tired.

Work is stressing me out.

I honestly feel I'm no good at my job.

I'm overweight.

I'm unattractive inside and out.

I can't think before I speak.

I have no strengths.

How the hell do you go about explaining this to someone?

Struggling

I'm really struggling at the moment. I'm not sleeping properly.  Work is just insane.  The kids are testing me like nobody's business and I'm feeling a little left out of the loop.  I'm over reliant on one or two people but I can't open up properly to anyone.

I  need help and I just can't ask for it. It's ridiculous and I don't know what I do next.

I've cut myself tonight for the first time in I don't even KNOW how long just because it centred me again.  Ridiculous.